28 Jun

For the past little while I’ve been feeling a little anxious, there are a lot of changes coming my way. I guess it just took a little bit longer for the feelings I expected to experience on my 25th birthday to kick in. One of the biggest changes is that my parents will be leaving Winnipeg and moving to Toronto in the next month. My mom is from Toronto so this is something she’s wanted to do for the past 29 years however I don’t think any of us really thought this day would come so fast. Don’t get me wrong, I’m really excited for my whole family to be in the same city for the first time in over 3 years, I mean come on, home cooked meals galore, but it will certainly be an adjustment. And the saddest part is, I have to say goodbye to the home I grew up in since the day I was born. That house holds a lot of memories for my family.

Another difficult thing is that it will be a lot harder for me to go back to Winnipeg. Although it’s not the right place for me to be in at this point in my life, I really loved growing up there. I fear that finding the opportunities to go back there will be few and far between and when I do go back I won’t be in my own house, I’ll have to crash on somebody’s couch. I have a few dear friends left there that I know have no problem having me but it just won’t be the same.

I’ve also been feeling some anxiety about my future in general lately. I’ve recently found out that I will have to put pursuing my MBA on hold for a few years which part of me is okay with but the other part fears. I love my job right now and I love where it’s taking me but I also know that there will come a point when I will want to go back to school. As a 25 year old woman though, I just don’t see where I’m going to find the time to do it all; excel at my job, go back to school, become a wife and then at some point become a mother. It just seems as though so many things are expected to happen all at the same time and this scares me. I try to reassure myself that it will all work itself out but when you’re looking up at the top of a mountain from the foot of it, it feels like you’ll never be able to make the climb.

Anyways, all of my anxiety aside, I did just finish a book so I’ll do a short book review as the post is already getting pretty long. For my book club I just finished the book The Postmistress by Sarah Blake. In short, this book was well written and started off having a lot of potential but in the end was quite a dissapointment. I feel that the story covered a lot of interesting themes and characters but never quite delved in deep enough to make the story develop in a way that could keep a reader entrenched in it. That’s really all I have to say about it. See, short and sweet. Now it’s back to packing, I’ve got a big trip ahead of me. And I will be doing something this coming weekend that may shock some people so stay tuned…


2 Responses to “Ch-Ch-Ch-Changes”

  1. Roy A July 7, 2011 at 10:07 pm #

    Especially after visiting, I think Winnipeg is a great place! so I can understand your fears regarding the changes, but you have lots of friends, family and a great boo in TO to help with the adjustment!

  2. Roy July 8, 2011 at 12:35 pm #

    2nd try at writing a comment (hope this one posts!). After visiting and enjoying Winnipeg so much, I can understand your uncertainty surrounding the changes. I think the change will be a good one and you have tons of people who care for you in T.O to help through the transition 🙂

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